Shadows of Doubt

I’m redesigning my website and I had all these lofty goals about launching in the New Year. HA! ProPhoto, the software I use, re-engineered their interface two iterations ago and basically I’m at a point now where I have to update to stay current on the backend. I am NOT a web designer so the learning curve, even with tutorials, is steep. I’m making progress but it’s slow going.

Speaking of slow going, my WW journey has crawled to a halt, through no fault of my own. I’ve been dealing with some medical issues since October and though I am fairly transparent, I’ve become a much more private person as I’ve gotten older. Curtis has also been dealing with some professional changes. The kids are great and I am incredibly grateful for that. But the net result is that I’ve pulled back from everyone and have isolated myself.

I miss sharing my thoughts though… I write as a way of processing through difficult parenting challenges and facing the demons in my head. Sometimes in the past, I felt shut down or shushed by others, and I allowed what other people thought chase me away from blogging and sharing my authenticity. I’m going to try to get back to what makes me… well ME. I like to create art that resonates with me, that expresses how I’m feeling or what I’m facing. Right now, I’ve been in a cycle of self-doubt. I need to break it. I’m still involved in our local photography club, the New Braunfels Photographic Society (in fact, I’m on the Board of Directors!). January’s theme was Shadows. I created this image with all of these challenges in mind. Fear, anxiety, self-doubt, being paralyzed by inaction, feeling like time is wasting away. I see myself in the mirror wondering who the hell I’m looking at.

Shadows of Doubt

Nikon D750 | 20mm | f/4.5 | 1/125 | ISO 1000 | tripod with self-timer

Thanks for looking! Whew, got something new posted before January was officially over.

Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...
back to top|share on Facebook|tweet this post|pin this post|email this post|link to this post|contact me